2.28.2010

One Month Later: Thoughts on Cameroon

Below is an excerpt from the letter I sent to those who sponsored my mission to Cameroon. I realized that I'm partially missing the point of the trip if I only share my experiences with those who gave money. Processing the thoughts and feelings after such an experience is tricky, especially when it was your first time out of the country. The itself provides perspective on one's daily life, but getting perspective on the trip itself takes time and a lot of quiet thought. You kind of have to let your mind marinate in the memories and, although they're all important, some will reverberate and become an easy pathway to the illustrating gained insight. Photos can help me tell a story and give my audience a reference point, but the truth--and the truth is everything--is going to be captured by only a few moments from my experience, perhaps fairly ordinary moments.

I know, though, that I'm not done with Cameroon yet, nor is it done with me.

"Before I ever left, I had prepared a defense for my departure. I assumed I would be asked, “Why go to Africa when people need help right here?” I knew my response. “I
n America,” I would say, “we don’t understand what real poverty is like. Being poor in America and being poor in a third-world country are two very different things.” It was presumptuous—I hadn’t, in fact, actually been to a third-world country yet—but I believed in the sentiment. But now that I’ve been to Cameroon and back, I realize I knew very little about poverty, an idea that’s so complicated I’m not sure I could define it anymore.

It doesn’t take two weeks in Africa to know that Americans are blessed with an abundance of riches. A trip down any aisle in nearly any American grocery store makes it staggeringly clear. Our pets receive more nutritionally balanced meals than millions of children in Asia and Africa. What struck me, however, over and over again, was that the “poverty” in Yagoua, Cameroon, wasn’t linked to any sense of desperation or fear. Although many families were self-sufficient—most villagers grow and live on millet and maybe a few other root vegetables—few had access to clean water or modern medicine. They live day to day, but not one family described life as a “struggle.” On the contrary, we found families expressing nothing but gratitude for the simplest of blessings.

One day, Pastor Chris and I were out in the field with our translator—a literal field by the way—and we came upon a family burning a log. “God has blessed us!” the father said. The family was burning the wood to make pieces of
charcoal, which they could then sell at the market. “Every day, He provides.” No sense of fear, no sense of worry, no sense of desperation; just a deeply-rooted faith that God loves them enough to provide for them every day. As we add more panicked exclamation points to our headlines here in the States, it was nearly a shock to meet a family that praised the Lord because they found a log in a field. It’s staggering to see how much joy we’re capable of when we let go of our fear. We can get go so used to our fear that sometimes we forget just how comfortable life can be without that fear.

Such perspective-altering interactions were a daily event in Cameroon. M
y experience was tremendously powerful—as an outsider who didn’t know the language, I had no choice but to give up all my control (or the illusion thereof) to God; as a result, I have never felt like God used me more. It was freeing and truly humbling. The people of Yagoua, as well, were beside themselves with excitement at the opening of the free clinic. Even though we weren’t able to meet with every individual—lines circled the building before we even showed up the first morning—we know that every pair of glasses, every cured fever, and every treated parasite was accepted as a miracle in the first degree.

Jesus healed the sick while leading his disciples and so we too tried to providing healing both physical and spiritual. Because I’m most certainly not a doctor, I was on the team that helped plant new churches on either side of the village. The local pastors were thrilled to see so much interest from the communities and by the end of our stay, new church plans had been put into motion with the local Lutheran Brethren. Soon, families that don’t have a home church—or have to walk several miles to get to one—will have a place to worship near their home.

The genuine smiles of the people of Yagoua flash through my mind every day and their songs (in Masana) echo in my ears. I feel like I’ve seen, for the first time, the kind of joyful, full-bodied praise that David writes of throughout Psalms. It’s the kind of praise I want to direct toward God and it’s with that same enthusiasm I want to extend my deepest gratitude to you."






















2.22.2010

Eating with Oscar: My Academy Awards Night Buffet

My Oscar Night Menu (for those who share in my special, golden brand of Crazy)

An Education - Parisian cheese spread

A Serious Man – Bagels and Lox

Up in the Air – Honey Roasted Peanuts

District 9 – Prawns

Precious – Fried Chicken

The Blind Side – Taco Bell (sigh)

The Hurt Locker - Irish Iraqi car bombs

Inglourious Basterds - Apple Strudel, Milk

Up – A rare exotic bird Hershey Bars and Butter Brickle Ice Cream

Avatar - Cigarettes. (Are you happy now, James Cameron?)



2.01.2010

2009's Great and Un-Nominated

Tomorrow morning, a lot of very deserving people will get Oscar nominations (for example: Carey Mulligan, Jeff Bridges, Christoph Waltz, Mo'Nique, Vera Farmiga). Hurrah for them. Before they do, here's my (brief) list of the 2009's Best Performances that have 0% chance of being nominated.

Joaquin Phoenix (Two Lovers)
He claims it's his last role, and it would be a great one to go out on. His portrayal of the depressed, lost, romanticizing dreamer in this great little drama cuts to the bone. It's a performance of personality extremes, but the fine work is all in the nuances.

Rachel Weisz (The Brothers Bloom)

She has scenes where she has to do something like, say, juggle chainsaws. And she has to do it with nonchalance without ever seeming ironic. Weisz somehow completes this nearly impossible task, and with her wicked sense of comic timing, she lifts up the whole movie.

Paul Rudd (I Love You, Man)
From "Jobin" to "Slappin' da bass," Rudd spins laughs out of cringeworthy moments with his total commitment to a guy who's so awkwardly not a "dude" that he wears overcompensation on his sleeve.


Olivia W
illiams (An Education)
I w
on't give anything away, but in the third act of "An Education," the teacher played by Williams becomes the voice for the audience. She's so fierce, so honest, and so vulnerable in her wishes for Jenny, that it sends ripples out into not only the world of the characters, but anyone watching.

Ed Helms (The Hangover)
Watch it again and pay special attention to Helms. In a film that's submerged in chaotic, fratboy charms, Helms creates an actual, real character. There's depth--and an all-too-real pathetic sadness--to Stu the dentist. Helms works within the tone of the film, but still gives Stu a real beating heart and he transcends the movie, which otherwise lets each character be a "type."


Ben Whihsh
aw (Bright Star)
OK, yeah, I loved the hell out of this movie. And a big part of that is because, as John Keats, Whihshaw is soft and sweet and it's through his timidity that we're able to detect his chemistry with Fanny. It's one of the rare performances in which I felt I was actually watching someone in love, and coupled with Keats' famous words, it's a powerful emotional punch.


Alycia Delmore (Hum
pday)
The role of Anna couldn't have been easy. As the wife of a man who wants to have sex with h
is (male) best friend as part of an experimental film (it all makes a kind of sense in the context of the movie), Anna could have been too shrill or too arty/liberally "cool with it." Anna is written as a real human being, but Alycia Delmore adds real layers of suburban frustration to this woman that makes her late-night, alcohol-assisted breakdown all the more brutally honest.

Kristen Stewart (Adventureland)

Girl Who Romances Vampi
res is actually quite the actress when you let her out. Stewart's sad/angry/funny lip-biting vampiness works perfectly in this 80s-set coming-of-age tale. Stewart gives this wayward college girl's private rebellious acts a sense of quiet desperation and, like Jesse Eisenberg's character, we see why her broken spirit is actually part of her charm.

Chris Pine (Star Trek)
It actually r
eminds me a lot of Harrison Ford in "Raiders of the Lost Ark." It's a broad, pleasing, fun, exciting performance that very few actors can actually pull off. It requires not only boatloads of charisma and screen presence, but a certain winking egotism. Pine's star turn feels almost old-school in how unabashedly joyful--and unapologetically sentimental--it is.

What are the other best unsung performances of 2009?